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  "Jesus, no. He was the gentlest man who ever lived. "

  "Was he then. "

  "He was a quiet man," I said, "and he was sad. I suppose you could say he was despairing. When he drank he would get happy. He would sing songs and, I dont know, just be silly. Then he would go on drinking and wind up sadder than when he started. But I never saw him get angry and I certainly never knew him to hit anyone. "

  "Mine was quiet, too. The bastard never said a word. " He filled his glass. "His English wasnt good and he had a thick accent. You were hard put to understand the man. But he spoke so rarely it scarcely mattered. He was free with his hands, though. "

  "He hit you?"

  "He hit all of us. Not her, for I believe he was terrified of her. Like an elephant afraid of a mouse, him a big hulking brute and herself a wee slip of a woman. But she could do more damage with her tongue than he ever did with his fists. " He tilted his head and looked up at the stamped-tin ceiling. "I got my size from him," he said, "and I got it early. He would beat me without a word and I took his beatings without a word, and then one day when I was not quite sixteen it was a time too many, and I didnt even flinch when he slapped me but stood my ground and hit him with my closed fist, hit him right in the mouth. He stood wide-eyed at the wonder of it and I hit him again and knocked him down, and I picked up a wooden chair and held it over my head, and I was going to hit him with it, and I might have killed him that way. It was a heavy fucker of a chair, for all that my anger made it feel as light as balsa wood.

  "And he broke out laughing. He was sprawled on the floor with blood running out of his mouth and I was about to break a chair over his head, and he was laughing. I had never heard the man laugh before, and as far as I know he never laughed again, but he laughed that day. It saved his fucking life, and saved me from as black a sin as a man can commit. I put the chair down and took his hand and drew him to his feet, and he clapped me on the back and walked off without a word. And never hit me again.

  "A year later I was living in a place of my own, collecting on the waterfront for a couple of Italians and stealing whatever I could. And a year after that he was dead. "

  "How did he die?"

  "A blood vessel in the brain. It was very sudden, no warning. He was almost twenty years older than my mother, and older when he died than I am now. The man was forty-five years old when I was born, so hed have been what, sixty-two when he died? He was working when it happened. Hed been to mass that morning, so I suppose he died in a state of grace. I dont know if that truly makes a difference. I know he died with a cleaver in his hand, and wearing a bloody apron. I kept them both, you know, the cleaver and the apron. I wear the apron when I go to mass. And there have been times Ive found a use for the cleaver. "

  "I know. "

  "Indeed you do. He went to mass every morning, and I dont know why he went or what he thought it did for him. I dont know why I go, either, or what I think it does for me. " He was silent for a moment. Then he said, "Your mothers not alive still, is she?"

  "No, she died years ago. "

  "So did mine. It was cancer killed her, but I always thought it was Denniss dying that brought it on. She was never the same after she got the telegram. " He looked at me. "Were orphans, the two of us," he said, and waved a hand at the windows, with the storm," he said, and took a drink.

  "The other day," I said, "a lawyer I know told me that man is the only animal that knows hell die someday. And hes also the only animal that drinks. "

  "Its an unusual thing for a lawyer to say. "

  "Hes an unusual lawyer. But do you think theres a connection?"

  "I know there is," he said.

  I dont know how we got around to women. He didnt seem to need them as much now, he said, and wasnt sure whether it was the years or the drink that deserved credit for the change.

  "Well, I stopped drinking," I reminded him.

  "By God, so you did. And now no womans safe from Inwood to the Battery. "

  "Oh, theyre safe," I said.

  "Are you still seeing the other one?"

  "Now and then. "

  "And does herself know about it?"

  "I dont think so," I said, "although she gave me a turn the other day. I was trying to get hold of the woman whose husband was stabbed to death in Forest Hills in February. I mentioned to Elaine that I was going to have to go out there and see her. A moment later she told me to enjoy myself with the widow, and I read more into the remark than shed put in it. I guess I looked startled, but I managed to cover it. "

  That reminded him of a story, and he told it, and the conversation meandered like an old river. Then a little later he said, "The widow in Forest Hills. Why ever would you go to see her?"

  "To find out if she knew anything. "

  "What could she know?"

  "She might have seen something. Her husband might have said something to her. " I told him some of the questions Id ask, a few of the points Id try to cover.

  "Is that how you do your detecting?"

  "Thats part of it. Why?"

  "Because Ive no idea how you do what you do. "

  "Most of the time neither do I. "

  "Ah, but of course you do. And you try all these different approaches until something works. Id never have the imagination to devise them all, or the patience to keep at it. When theres something I need to know, theres only one way I have of finding it out. "

  "Whats that?"

  "I go to the man who has the answer," he said, "and I do what I have to do to make him tell me. But if I didnt even know who to go to, why, Id be entirely lost. "

  If the rain had let up I might have gone home earlier. I began to flag sometime around four-thirty or five in the morning, and there was a time when the conversation died down and I glanced over at the window. But it was still pouring, and instead of pleading exhaustion and heading for the door I pushed my Perrier aside and poured one more cup of coffee from the thermos. A little later I caught a second wind, and it carried me past dawn and down to St. Bernards for the butchers mass.

  There were fifteen or twenty of us in the little side chapel, including seven or eight men from the meat market, dressed in white aprons just like Micks, some of them stained as his was stained. There were several nuns as well, and a couple of housewives and some men dressed for the office. And a few elderly people, men and women, including one who was a dead ringer for the murderous Eamonn Dougherty, right down to the cloth cap.

  We left when the mass was over, without having taken Communion. The sky was still overcast but no rain was falling. Micks Cadillac was where hed parked it, in the reserved space in front of Twomeys funeral parlor. Twomey was out in front and gave us a wave when he saw us. Mick gave him a smile and a nod.

  "Its good days for Twomey," he said. "His business is more than twice what it was, now that theyre dying of AIDS all around him. Its an ill wind, eh?"

  "Thats the truth. "

  "Ill tell you another," he said. "Every winds an ill wind. "

  * * *

  He dropped me at my door. I went upstairs and tried to make as little noise as possible opening the door, not wanting to wake Elaine if she was still sleeping.

  When I opened the door she was standing there, wearing a robe Id bought for her. The look on her face told me right away that something was wrong.

  Before I could ask, she said, "You dont know, do you? You havent heard?"

  "Heard what?"

  She put a hand out, took mine. "Gerard Billings was killed last night," she said.

  24

  For a full twelve years, Gerard Billings had been the weather reporter for an independent New York broadcast channel. While he was officially known as the chief meteorologist, his function was primarily reportorial. His colorful clothing, his irrepressible personality, and his evident willingness to make a fool of himself on camera were more important factors in his rise than his ability to read a weather map.

  He was on the air
twice a day, at 6:55 P. M. , just before the close of the 6:30 news program, and again at 11:15, right in the middle of the late news and before the extended sports summary. Typically, he would arrive at the station at five in the afternoon, work out what he was going to say and get his maps and charts in order, and go out for dinner after the broadcast. Sometimes he would linger over dinner for a couple of hours, then return to the studio. Other nights hed go home for a nap and a change of clothes, then go back to the studio for his second stint of the day. Hed get there between 10 and 10:30; he didnt need as much time to prepare, because he would be using the same charts and giving essentially the same report.

  At seven that Tuesday night he went straight home to the apartment on West Ninety-sixth where hed lived since his divorce four years previously. He ordered Chinese food from a restaurant on Amsterdam Avenue. Shortly after ten he went downstairs and caught a cab driven by a recent Bengali immigrant named Rakhman Ali. As the cab waited to make a left turn into Columbus Avenue, it was sideswiped by a car that was attempting to pass it on the right. The driver leaped from his car and got into a loud argument with Rakhman Ali, at the climax of which he drew a handgun, shot Ali three times in the face and upper chest, then yanked open the door of the cab and emptied his gun into Alis passenger. He then sped away in his own vehicle, which was variously described as anywhere from two to twelve years old. Witnesses seemed to agree that it was a four-door sedan, that it was dark in color, and that it had seen better days.

  Elaine, watching the news, knew something was wrong even before they introduced a substitute weatherman to fill in for Billings. There were no jokes about the absent forecaster being under the weather, and all of the reporters in the studio seemed to be keeping a grim secret. It turned out that they had learned of Billingss death moments before they went on the air and decided to hold the story pending notification of kin. This decision was overruled toward the end of the broadcast when they realized they were in danger of getting scooped by their competitors; accordingly, the anchorwoman made the unfortunate announcement right after the sports wrap-up.

  "I didnt know what to do," Elaine said. "I knew you were at Grogans and I looked up the number and thought about calling, but what were you going to do in the middle of a rainy night? Besides, for all I knew it was just what it looked like, an argument over a traffic accident that got out of control. It happens all the time, and everybodys got a gun these days, and maybe theyd catch the poor loser who did it within the hour, and why ruin your evening with Mick over that?

  "So instead I turned the radio to WINS and stayed up for hours. I had the radio turned down low and I had a book to read, and I heard the same half hour of news over and over, and when they got to the Billings story I would stop reading and turn the volume up, and it would be the same thing as before, word for word. And I wound up falling asleep with the radio on and woke up at seven with it blaring away.

  "Should I have called you? I didnt know what to do. "

  It was just as well she hadnt called me. There wouldnt have been anything for me to do. There was little enough for me to do now, the morning after the shooting, except field the telephone calls that came in from Ray Gruliow and Lewis Hildebrand and Gordon Walser. Id have to know more, I told each of them, before Id know how to proceed.